THE SORROWS OF A SAVANT

'As long's a man killin time, it ain't doin him.'
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A little tale... (creative writing, yours truly)

My name is paul and I'm an addict.


Thursday, December 1, 2016

I told a guy..

Anyone who looks me in the eyes is an ungrateful, unless it's a child. But I always turn away, track marks are nothing to look up at.
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so actors 95/5 gay/tard how's  RETARDED WRITER SUITE WHO CAN CUT CONTEXT eminem/tolstoy. so a 5 amongst writers with my ties going MADoffSaintly?

Ivan Ilyitch at rock bottom realized his only friend was....whatever

I'm sorry, sergey muravsky.

Had you beeGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

Incase my head gets blown off by a Screw CORK Sargeant.

everythin's wrong fellas .

And a petty larcinist aint no thug criminal or gangster

100LB SOAKIN WET JUVENILE DIABETIC POCKETED A DIET COKE 7 times in 11 years.

My mother has no place ever worryin' bout me(I do worry about her)., I knew who I am from my first "fairly 2solated" MEMORY with her...and who I've become at the first memory with my 1st grade teacher back home. I sat between a girl n boy whom bullied me, Teacher said "enough". I cried.

Own dad still comments once in a blue "She really loved you". The teacher that is, not the girl. Otherwise I wouldn't  be sitting here alone.

(valya youngishly alright) the lady kid had reddish hair, how many slammin swimsuits wearin' red hair? Conan Obrien, been awhile since I watched him, don't know how far he took it..gggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg


....Now towards the end of the night, I'll explain why I sit here typing 8 hours a day. "ERs". Not ER's. It's El Recluso Syndrome. There is a 72% effective treatment. Psilocybin. (shrooms)

"Platonic relationships" It's hard enough to have one with the gender you prefer. Relationship means intimacy, Ie: in bed. I REMEMBER AT 17  laying behind a young lady holding her close. I managed to ignore erection with manly thinking. She was prolly half flattered half ah shit saintly myshkin came to america. Now vivid-snap thhis, right. I'm friends  with a T (m/f). We lay in the previously described position and I get a slight scent of testosterone. I'd be in tears and my part? One of us would have to die. (Demotes further tomfoolery to avoid a headache)

I'm 33+trackmarks=41. You see the math, match?

Beach is still nice winter time.

It's just how it is on the scale...

Anywhere on the autist one. Mimickin-> verbally=your education level pretense >- vocally absorbs from the best joke known -> personally-well, you're disguising first 2 50/50 mimicin a close person.


EVEN AUTIST May have An anatomy of a secret life.

My shit put me into some Checkovian "The Bet" for anatomies iller than myself

Who or what the 90 degree inteercept..ed? or? Yestrday.

Wednesday, November 30, 2016

AINT GONNA DISCERN REASON NO MORE

2 HOURS SOBER ALONE IN A HOUSE I KNOW FOR FACT I NEED NOONE I COULD B LIKE AT 30MIN INTERVALS EXERCISE/bLATNAYA MUSIC/MEDITATION BEHIND A SMOKE RATIO 1/4 RATHER 4/1/BREAK A NUT spend some time thinkin to myself,b CIGARETTE BTWN HER RACK...........Sold~


For dinner I'd much like..

A moment of thought
aside all the tension
last was a jail boat
my titanic mansion.

i'm straight just doubt Ellen is into me. Older's fine.

"It's true , rikers island goin closed.
consequence now above water,
assholes had me livin' in the soon to be past
WHEN A GAMBLIN BOAT's available!"


- On odd out

Towards the end of the night...

I'm comfortable in the company of my family, enjoy my own cumpony and love anasta...forgot i told myself i'd not mention HERs (20:21-22:55).

Where's the 4th? Free on Eris. Bereza didn't pay for it, as far as I know Noone else "in on it".

Pryorish spin atm....WHY IS EVERY1 TRYIN TO RUIN MY LIFE, I DONT PUT YOU DOWN FOR WEARIN' TURTLENECKS
IM BOUT TO START OUTPATIENt im an addixt

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

ONCE AGAIN WHEN FORBES 5 PUT ME DOWN...

PROCEEDS 2 TISTIC KIDS AND ANY CHILD SICK W/O FAMILY, I NEED MONEY LIKE I NEED A DICK IN MY ASS.

Edward W(in my book, Wisconsin Redl or)

Me..a sociopath? I'm burnt crisp and still have more of a concious than (with all due respect)

^got home

Now goes w/o sayin`, so officer Btwn u and i

I suffered 3months in jail , 2/3 hospice sick. Do I deserve more? for an "illicit" something. I'm all about fun n' games but new years here.


..A fellow inmate there offered me his protection, I with the uppity most sincerity humbly declined. Thinkin' to muh incessant self if something obscenely dark happens to me here, I deserve it more so than ya do the yarmulke. Walking away in my no teefum more of a concious smile.

Ya'll folks folks askin YOseLvez when did nietzche and richard pryor sync into the heart of a jooshizzy boy?

South carolina may let you in on it.,;/HEH.'';G

7:51pm TIME 4 THE AWKWARD MANS BEACH TIME!

Wednesday, November 23, 2016

"Poodles."

I remember seein' your lights out stories when we were kids, humorous?

Or however childhood awkward can be spoken of, autist type hydrocephalite saw funny.

But expression's you only got one mother. Yours ill, sickly expressed desire for fatherly heroics.

have i completely lost it or did u ever say "lights out" in regards to there of.

MY MOMMA AINT NEED NO MAN HEROS, she raised me >right herself.

She's got character though, misintrepreted jokes aside.

...on her. With pops she talks like its business, so its me..and. If I ever meet another man with whom she talks like a lady, ill burry him.

Monday, November 21, 2016

IN YOUR HOLY MEMORY RICHARD PRYOR

Laugh you not.

-> WORD IS .. I BELIEVE IN JACK WSTFU FAGOT


.. hope i'm not forever scum in my brothers eyes cause "michael jordan wouldn't pay my rent."

we watched basketball as kids not 3rdbase'men?

Sunday, November 20, 2016

Let me tell you WHY She's the perfect woman..

I'll spare you Taoist philosophy  here on her. It's simply because she was AFFORDED stupidity on a level of expense beyond green or interpersonal alone. Her persona is not rooted from excess of or lacking IQ or "neurological function". It's just on a level of good-heart NO MAN could ever have. Not a straight one at the least.... She don't cook clean or wear lipstick yet she AFFORDS the outcome of all 3.


YEH YOU, NAST-UH.

^ last night, alexis solely goin' by ur appearance back then if its as id imagine of u atm, i dont got it like that to cover for it. i still get hard naturally but no //$ is what i speak of

THERES ONLY ONE THING I WANT TO BE AFFORDED EVEN IF ITS BETTER SAID BE FORCEfed, i said it before... i rather die on 2 legs than live on one. ALWAYS. NO QUESTION.

Speakin' solely on me