THE SORROWS OF A SAVANT

Read from first post on blog in 2011 to last. That's the whole book. (each post is related to each previous)
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A little tale... (creative writing, yours truly)

My name is paul and I'm an addict.


Friday, August 5, 2016

SHUDA KNOWN BETTER THAN 2 REGISTER DOMAIN NAME WITH NY IN IT

IMMA SAY IT ONCE FOR HOWEVER LONG IS LEFT

I'M A NEEDLE RIDDEN DEAD-BEAT(Beatnik kerouac fan)

IF I LET RATHER IF MOTHER DIES BEFORRE ME IM GOING TO HELL, SO WATS GOIN ON IMMA LET IT HAPPEN.

ONLY ONE PERSON CAN STOP IT STOP ME ETC THATS YOU ANASTACIA KAREVA. I LOVE YOU.


FURTHER REMARK ENTICES CRUELTY FUCK THAT, NASTYA U AINT GOT LONG LEF TC TIOGCHANGE IT 9175246572
U FUCKIN WITH MY ACCT LOOK ME IN THE FACE WHILST I GOT A KNIFEB IN MY HAND WE'LL SEE WHO BURNS FOR ETERNITY COCKSUCKR I SWEAR 8ON THE HOLY GRAIL ILL KILL YOU.5
I WAS OUTSIDE MAYBE U DNT LIVE ON NUGENT AVEC FAGGOT LLET ME JKNOW I WONT TAKEC SUBOXONE IN THE MORNING  SHUT OFF PAIN FIGHTIN AND U CAN KILL ME FAGGOT EVEN WATCH ME SUFFER WHILE I DIE

Thursday, August 4, 2016

Moment of deep sentiment.

Just walked by catholic church, young.. teenager was sitting there.

I said "I apologize." he replied in a mild tone "It's okay."

thnk u
Imma go to rehhab in the morning
 SHAME CORNERSTONE WONT TAKE THIS SELF-IMPORTANT SCRABBLER.

/last night
now it's 2;44am
timelessly'shameless'always'rightttttT

A Tsar.

"nother vysotskyish VALENTINA Translation.

Why you whore
raisin' eyebrows ar me
what'd you put on
 your lotto ticket for
and wha'd you put on
your linear ticker for
and whered you slut
put on your snowy skies
cant hide from me to our club
my second tticket
you know ni you
i dont hide my soul
that for you im ready to
rob n st3al day and night
but lately i started noticin'
you been cheatin on me too often
if its this faggot or even the
Armani wearin' one
i wont go against real pals
but if its the other sick one
ill breAK ya fuckin' legs
reddish hoe ii wont hide rfrom you
if ya keep wearin' em
highish heels
i wont hidev from you
but burry and cement you
but will come da summer
youll be back
ill getv myself a more expensive hoe
youll croAk from envy
say im sorry to ya
but ill spit on you
wouldnt take it for free

WHAT CAN I SAY IM A LUSTFUL RECLUSE...

back from 9min walk..

come to think of it..

regardless of howas our past looked like, my testosteron excessive or not aint no fuckin' paradoxes here

i no room to ssay that ot evebn type...

she was VERY kind to me liike she was doestovskys idiotnnocence... and was/is a pretty smart  bird
in a 5 series at 21. got her way w/men and was truly sincere towards me.

but as we know i'm a winner myself in a 7series

but id never want to  b rich...it just ain't me. it ain'T.

I DON'T LIKE THE SELF-IMPORTANCE OF THESE WHITEYS ->

Theie self-importance presumptous(sp?} of me but based on faktttts.

LEAD POPE OF R USSIAN CHURCH NARCISSUS NUFF SAID. MICHAEL STIPE(but he's alrigght he let that dude make siumm $$$ on book "outing him"> TOM CRUISE Y HE NEVER LET VAL KILMER MAKE NO BREAD OFFA NBOOK LIKE DAT). HOWARD STERN FUCK U FAGET I JOINED THE R-WORD CAMPAIGN, U GOT A 'RETARD' ONB UR SHOW/??

I just had tio ause a cigarette as a breathalyzer to SWALLOW THEIR SELF-IMPORTANCE WHOLE

...asses a bunchavvhomos( except mike. s )v i'm a STR8MANTIC WESTERN LIT PhD

True story my follks

Listen before you judge:
who your stoical savant RESPECTS https://soundcloud.com/user-22573342/audio-recording-on-thursday-5

I don't wish to change my profession.
russian song is criminal romanticism ain't no fuckin' literary discourse.

-Pasha, PhD.

Your 'Rain Man'...laugh, it's funny

guy pretty big dude in jail says to me.. You're the first man I ever met who got no teeth and loves to smile.
yeah 1 for bad 2 for good

institution personality.,sry omnly got one theere.

 now 12;52 pm imma go smooke a bus down i ran at the S51 art3am like a pre-pubescent, WHEN SON PULLED OVER I BRUSHED him OTFF MYV SHOULDER. FAGET

NO seriously tho imma go smoke.

Wednesday, August 3, 2016

You know a discomfort is only unpleasant..

If individual sees an end to it. Once acceptance is reached...that it's all thats left. All discomfort ceases.

Rikers Rx-7, Richard?

I used to think I dressed bummishly but today realized
my clorhes are of higher sentimental value than my
columbian counterpart  p.escobar had at the peak his
career. jail footwear i aint no criminal used to see
crime romantically hspital socks been sick most of
my life a t-shirt guy i liveed w/ halfway house
in the ghetto and brand new fuckin' sweat pants
alrdy a  hole in one ankle...no scratch mark.

Just now walkin' home i notice Alexus w/ jersey plates
Im thinkin' thats it impagliuzzo bout to take me out.
Switched 2 letters for anonymity prnciple. fughedbout
Arman'y' clothing.
 Then realized how they know me over in Texas. At 16
I used to play this game with a Texas chick whos father
was worth a' lil more than "$1.50 of cocaine".
Mazda Mazza how u doin'? still in the Rx-7? ;)

Tuesday, August 2, 2016

i enjoy readin maself!

deda hasana zvali professor on lubil chetat :*(

.. on the 3rd roughly at 3am..I'm walkin on fodder cap blvd street along beachside, acknowledgin' a hallucination, when I saw her drive by, her face when she was 19...she's 30......Today.

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

Aight, 7/27, lucky number 7 I was born on the 27th so..

I started new drug program haven't taken suboxone 2 days now. Last outpatient attempt, I came fucked on drugs each time after getting told you can't nod off in group I was rude, ended up gettng kicked out the program. But god bless that young lady who sat in that group wih a noticeable amount of physical discomfort and mde it clEar she's refusing narcotics/pain meds cause she's an addict. If she or rather you...you come across this. Thanks for inspiration. I'm done with this fucking trash suboxone and all other alternatives/narcotics.

I guess facing myself in the mirror wasn't enough for recovery from addiction...so here I am, done with this suboxone shit and alternatives. If it brings me to circumstance of great suffering...I'll know I payed as heavy for my sins as my teenage years hero the late and last, god, well ok...just John(basketball player, long time ago).  I'm no great criminal or nothin' but I've got my share of foul in history. Another signature of great nerve(so to politely speak)Willie nelson. 83.

For rap fans in elite schools who want references to their universities in a freestyle. (pun instrumental)

random nonsense freestyle over "Trap" instrumental.

Tuesday, July 26, 2016

Today, I was out on a very expensive date..

I gifted my accompanee half a cigarette I bummed ---oh wait that might'v e happenand

 I've comitted a delayed sin and no developmental pretense so it's delayin'

ITS 10:33am I am paranoid

That either A) I'm being drugged at night taken to dialysis spots and being treated for what ive fucked myself into not knowing (MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT)
or B) gays are coming over, same time span and raping me drugged.
or C) 3rd one to boot. it's 2/2 if so, before significant area nerve endings fail i'd like some of this medical treatment be replaced with...the most flawless physique UNNATURAL blonde at 5'8, hotel dont matter, any hotel spot will do, dont have to be hilton. A fuck is a fuck. I respect women but evidently plenty are into this 'hustle'', so..

Level of avoidance I mentioned last post after that...well how much socially adequate/respectful foreplay can there really be? She'll make a few comments, recite whatever. I'll spew enough wit and end it with a comforting romantic poem and we get to business. I call it "inclined by testosterone, r-word campaign benifactor".

ONCE AGAIN A CORRECTION: The definition of "Penis envy" might be envying a penis an organ u dont have, might be the lgbt definition. A_T. But between 2 men, let me define articulately and adequately for you:

It's envying ones manhood, testosterone levels, character resulting from the former or the latter.(Even both, imagine autismspeaks.org ?) You want a 3rd one's a charm? Watch a ric flair video, maybe richard pryor when he's really cracked out.